Archive for the ‘Just Me’ Category

June 4th, 2010

Well its been a while since I last blogged. So much has been going on that I simply just haven’t taken the time….oh yeah and I blog was broken for quite a while before it got around to fixing itself (I imagine someone did it, but it wasn’t me!)! :)

So now, here we are in spring, looking towards summer…the garden is planted. I’m so thrilled about this!! I do still have some plants to put in somewhere in the backyard, but hopefully that will be done today!

This weekend we are having our first yard sale! I’m so excited! I have everything ready a day early!! Whoo hoo!! It will be held at a friend’s house in Carthage, since our road is traveled at to high a speed for a great turnout…Anyway….I sure do hope we make some good money! It will all go towards our summer fun!

This weekend is also Elijah’s 4th birthday!! My oh my, where did the time go?! Moriah is 2 1/2! They are so much fun at this age! I wouldn’t trade a minute of it…well…maybe a few…:)

So there’s the update! I’ll try to get back to blogging!! :)

Famous

February 28th, 2010


Today in church, the music spoke to my heart, which was great because Moriah was a grump and I totally missed the message because she would not let me leave the nursery.

I’ve loved this song since I first heard it in college, but the thing that really got me to love it was my senior year of college when I was working a Christian book store.  I had begun to loose my love for God.  I had begun to be apathetic to life and to God’s calling for my life.

One day I was sitting in my favorite part of the store, the kid’s department, which was right next to the music, when I heard a little girl singing this song.  ”You are the Lord, the FAAAAAMMMMOUUUSSSSS one, the Faaaaaauuuumooous one!  Great is your name in all the earth!”

First of all: ADORABLE!  The child got louder and louder and I had to get up and see her.  So I peeked around the corner at this little girl, probably 7 or 8 years old singing this beautiful worship song at the top of her lungs.  Wow.  So I went back to work.

A while later I heard her ask her dad.  ”Daddy, why is Jesus famous?”

Her father’s answer was tender and true. “Because he loves us so much that he died on the cross for us, even though He didn’t deserve that death.  That’s why Jesus is famous.”

I have to admit that there are days I think more about President Obama and the in-pending doom of our economic system or about Governor Patterson and his stupid crazy ideas sometimes more than I think about Jesus.  Sometimes I think about Karen Kingsbury and her next book that’s coming out or about Mark Driscoll more than I think about Jesus.  Sometimes I get so busy with the day to day and think of nothing besides getting the house cleaned before the next set of company arrives.

Why though?  Jesus is famous.  There is no other name under heaven that is known more than his name.  Jesus.

I’m baaaaaaaaaccck!!

December 4th, 2009

Hello, All!  Remember me?  The keeper of this blog?!

I really hadn’t intended on being absent for so long. My computer died and I was using Len’s for a while.  Every time I used Len’s computer…there wasn’t really time for blogging.  So it took a back seat…

There is so much to write.  There is so much I had wished I could blog about.  Life has REALLY changed.  I will spare you from every detail, and just tell of some of what God has done in our lives.

Our summer was fruitful in both the garden and our lives!  It was amazing.  We grew closer as a family.  Len and I both to each other and to our children.

This past summer/fall I spent most any spare minute that I had in organizing our home.  I don’t believe our home has ever actually been organized.  I would have one room, maybe  two rooms organized at a shot, but never the entire home.  Organizing took several trips to the local consignment shop as well as to the thrift store and dumpster. I think perhaps the kids’ closets need organizing once again, but I can honestly say that I know what we have and where it is. LOL! This makes our lives SOOOOOOO much easier.

We also switched our house all around to include Len’s office to be downstairs, out of our bedroom, and into the dining room.  We switched the living room and dining room and moved the TV upstairs.  The kids still watch videos here and there upstairs, but no more being glued to the television.  We LOVE it that way.  They are so much more creative and their imaginations have simply flourished!!

Monday-Thursday I have started watching three boys, ages 5, 3, and 8 months.  I watch them for 3 hours and make a bit of money to help out.  I think God rewarded me for getting my house in order.  Because of this I was able to buy a new laptop…nothing big and special just a simple netbook, which makes me even more organized when it comes to youth group and church stuff.  My  iPod is wonderful, but I get a little cross eyed reading everything on that sometimes. :-)

So…this is our life.  I will update more and here and there on the children and our doings. :-)  God is good and I thank Him for this wonderful life He gives me!!!

My God loves me!

April 7th, 2009

I serve an AMAZING God.

This God chose me.  This God loves me.  He loves me even though I’m me.  He loves me when I fail.  He loves me when I excel.  He loves me!

Lately, Elijah really hasn’t wanted to go to bed.   Moriah’s loves her bed and is usally out within a few minutes, but Elijah has been fighting us on bedtime.  Sunday was a very long day for Eli, so I took him in my room and cuddled him to sleep.  As I lie next to my firstborn I couldn’t help but think about Jesus.  Crazy I know, but the hot Pastor (AKA my hubby, Len) at my church (not the old one, if you were there this last week) really got me thinking.  Now, my son is a wonderful boy, but he is far from perfect.  Jesus was perfect.

When Len and I watched the Passion of the Christ several years ago in the Theater, I’m not sure we spoke to each other the entire exit of the Theater, to the car and back to our college campus. The picture so vivid of the account of Jesus’ betrayal, beating, and death made my heart scream out “STOP IT!”  I remember biting my tongue once in the theater to stop myself from actually screaming out!

I’m not sure I truly understood the sacrifice of Jesus until I had my own children.  Can’t you just imagine the heart beat of Mary as she had to stand by and watch her firstborn go through such horrible torture?  Do you think maybe God wished he hadn’t promised to give His Son after all?  When I stop and think about how horrible that day must have been, I have to stop and think about how much God loves me.

I am a wretched sinner.  I struggle with lots of different sins and while I’m not going to list them all out for you, I will definitely agree that I DON’T DESERVE JESUS!  I don’t deserve His love and I certainly don’t deserve his forgiveness.

I tend to beat myself up over my sins, but God doesn’t beat me up over them, but forgives me instead!  So tonight…I stand in awe of my Jesus, my Savior and my God.  :-)

Life is just so busy sometimes!!

March 29th, 2009

I sat down today and realized that for the first time in weeks I don’t have anything that I just have to get done right now or I won’t have time later.  It seems like I’ve been in full motion since we got back from our mini-vacation.  CRAZY!  So today we got home from church and Len’s parents were already here getting dinner ready (they’re totally awesome like that) and after eating, I put Moriah down for  nap and Elijah and I sat in the recliner and cuddled/napped together.  I love holding that child.  He’s just so darn cuddly!  Anyway…I woke up refreshed.  I mean seriously, God knew what he was thinking when He created that seventh day for resting!  So tomorrow, I’m sure I’ll see ten billion things that need to get done around the house, but I’m THRILLED that we don’t have to go anywhere for once on a Monday (Len’s day off) and we can spend the day together as a family, loving each other and relaxing a bit together!

Diana’s Thoughts on Genesis

March 11th, 2009

I love reading God’s word!!

Genesis is a cool book. It is seriously packed full of coolness!

Creation.  God made us from dirt in His image after He made a bunch of other really cool things!  Then there was the fall…….I can’t judge Adam and Eve to harshly because my heart is stupid wicked and decietful.  I’m just not that cool and I know that I would have sinned if I was the first woman.  People sinned, God still loved them.

Then there was Noah.  I mean seriously have you ever stopped to think about just how big that Ark had to have been?  Simply amazing!!!!  And God was pretty funny afterwards when He confused their languages so that they couldn’t understand each other and made them move on their way.   Can’t you just imagine going up to your brother and to say hi like you did every other day and not being able to udnerstand each other? LOL!  I’m sure it wasn’t funny to them at the time and they totally deserved it for disobeying God, but it sure is kind of funny to me looking back!

Then we move on to Abraham…Abraham is an interesting character.  He found favor in God’s eyes.  I still wonder why sometimes.  What had he done that God would bless him so wonderfully?  I do imagine it was hard to do all that God had required of him.  Perhaps that’s why he failed at times.  He was supposed to leave his country, taking only his family and possesions.  I’m not certain taking Lot, his nephew with him was really what God had in mind, but he did it anyway!

So continuing on with Abraham.  He failed.  A lot.  He lied twice and told others that Sarah was not his wife, but his sister…UGH!  Now, Sarah was both his sister and his wife (which is just wrong!), but thats not the point!  Sarah was beautiful and the men of the foreign lands would love to have taken her as their wife.  What a mess that would have been!

God tested Abraham and Sarah’s faith.  I really love reading about this…God tests my faith from time to time too and ya know what I mess it all up too!  Sarah fails by not trusting that God would give her a child.  She was barren and old.  I mean seriously…my grandma will be 86 this July and since she had her last of ten children 44 years ago, I’m thinking she won’t be having any more any time soon.  Its easy to sit back and say “yeah but God said…”  Yes, but God tells us stuff all the time and we still fail in our faith miserably too, so try not to judge Sarah too harshly!  I just feel bad for the maidservant Hagar.  She didn’t get to choose her husband.  She was just told go get pregnant by Abraham and have a baby for me.  So she did, then Sarah didn’t want the baby and Ishmael, along with his mother Hagar were treated harshly.

FINALLY after what seemed like an eternity, Sarah conceived and gave birth to Isaac, which means laughter.  Sarah named him that because his birth made them all laugh.  Isaac was loved greatly by his parents!

Then God decided to do something very disturbing to me.  He told Abraham to go up Mt.  Moriah (my sweet sweet baby girl’s name) and sacrifice his son.  Uhhh…God?  Did I just hear you right?  Yes you did, Abraham, now go!  Wow! I can’t even begin to tell you the thoughts that are going through my head as I read that!  My son is Elijah and he’s mine and I love God, but do I love Him that much?  I’m not sure that I do…just one more way I suck, I guess.  But Abraham, showed his faith here!  He trusted God!  So he took his son to sacrifice.  Now think with me here again…at this point Isaac is old enough to understand that something isn’t right.  I think I even read somewhere that he was a teenager.  I could be wrong her though, so I’ll just shut up about that…BUT!!!  Can’t you just hear him as his father ties him up and get’s ready to kill him?!!!  Daddy?  Daddy, please, no!?  Please, Daddy?! UGH!  Good thing God provided a different sacrifice, because I’m sure those were some pretty intense moments and I’m sure that Abraham had some pretty hefty dreams rolling down his cheeks!

So Issac grows up and and marries Rebecca, a pretty cool girl full of faith and just a bit deceitful.  She has twins, Esau and Jacob.  Esau is of course the first born and he’s hairy.  Thats pretty funny sounding to me, but anyway.  Issac favors Esau and Rebecca favors Jacob.  Esau is not the smartest tool in the shed and sells his birthright for some food.  Moron.  Later on Jacob, with the help of his mother tricks Issac into thinking that Jacob is Esau and Isaac gives Jacob Esau’s blessing.  The blessing of the firstborn son is something special and well..lets just say Esau isn’t too happy about it all. So Jacob runs away to the land his mother is from.

So Jacob gets to his destination and shortly after meets Rachel. Rachel was beautiful and in the right family!  I still find it amusing that they all had to marry their cousins and whatnot!  :-)   Anyway, so Jacob worked for Laban, Rachel’s father, for seven years in order to win Rachel’s hand in marriage.  When he woke the morning after his “wedding” he found he had not married Rachel, but Leah, her older sister!  WoW!  Laban, in my opinion was Jacob’s match for deceit!  Jacob worked for seven more years and married Rachel as well!  Can’t you just imagine that?  Two sisters, one husband.  Yeah, it wasn’t pretty.  Jacob continued to work for Laban and built up his own herds in a rather deceitful way that I don’t feel like getting all into detail with.  Its interesting though….

Leah started having babies, but Rachel had none.  Rachel was jealous, so she gave her maidservant (sounds like Sarah, don’t you think?) to Jacob to have babies for her.  Sounds like fun to Leah, so she gives her maidservant to Jacob as well.  Finally Rachel is able to have two sons herself.  :-)   In all, Jacob had 12 sons.  Rachel’s son Joseph was his favorite.

Jacob loved and favored Joseph so much that he gave him an ornamental robe to show his favor.  Joseph had a dream one night that all of his brothers would bow down to him.  When he told his brothers about this, they were ANGRY!  They were so angry that they beat Joseph, sold him to some Canaanites and told his father he must have been killed by a wild animal.

Joseph was then taken to Egypt where he was sold to a man named Potiphar, one of Pharoah’s officials.  God was with Joeseph and he prospered in all that he did.  Potiphar trusted Joeseph and put him charge of his entire house.  I’m thinking this meant that Joeseph did everything Potiphar himself should have been doing.  :-)

Joseph was a good looking guy and Potiphar’s wife noticed.  She wanted to sleep with him and after he’d said no one too many times, she grabbed his cloak.  He got out of it and ran away, but she was ANGRY…so she lied and said he had wanted to sleep with her.  Joeseph was thrown in jail.

While he was in jail he met two other prisoners, a baker and a cupbearer.  Each man had a dream one night and in the morning wanted to know what their dreams meant. Joseph interpreted them and the dreams came true!  The baker was terminated and the cupbearer was put back to his old job.  The cupbearer only remembered Joseph two years later when Pharoah himself had a dream that nobody else could interpret.

Pharoah’s dreams were pretty interesting.  In the first dream, he dreamt that seven skinny cows ate up seven fattened ones. In the second dream seven sunscorched stalks of grain ate up seven tall healthy ones!

Basically his dream meant that there was going to be seven years of bounty follwed by seven years of famine.  God was warning Pharoah that he should stock up!   So Pharoah put Joseph in charge!

A while into the famine, guess who showed up for food!  Yup, his brothers!!  Can’t you just imagine how angry Joseph was?!  He was a man of God though and he forgave them!  After he tested to them to be sure they had changed, he told them who he was and had the entire family move into Egypt where the food was!

So basically Genesis=creation, promises, decietful men, and God’s, not man’s, perfect plan.
I LOVE IT!

Spring is in the air!!

March 6th, 2009

mar2009-030So we went outside today to enjoy it!  This was the first time since she can walk that Moriah has been outside to play!!  The snow was so high and it was so cold around here that it wasn’t wise to take her out before today!  She LOVED it!  She’s a little daredevil though and I quickly found the swing and put her in it so she didn’t get hurt on the ice!  She giggled loudly with each swoosh of the swing.  It was very amusing!!

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She loved watching her big brother too!!  Elijah hasn’t had nearly as much outdoor play as he would like.  He is all boy and would be outside 24/7 if weather and Mommy would allow!  This morning he REALLY enjoyed himself!  Last fall he was still a bit too small for a “big boy” swing, but this year he’s getting a little more brave with it…just don’t push him to high!!

mar2009-038He also enjoyed his slide!  He has a small little tikes slide inside this winter, but nothing beats a “big” slide!!  He can climb it all by himself now without scaring mommy and he LOVED it!  He screamed WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

mar2009-070Mommy couldn’t help but smile at them!  They’re just so darn cute!  :-)   We had a great time outside!!

mar2009-041So until all of this melts out of the yard and fields…

mar2009-040We are THRILLED with 49 degrees!!!

Cake Decorating!!!

March 5th, 2009

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My dear (step) father-in-law, Jim asked me to take a cake decorating class with him.  He said he’d pay for it if I did it with him!!  Whoo hoo!  How could I resist?

So tonight was the first class, which was basically an overview.  This next week we get to work!  I’m soooo thrilled with it! I can’t wait!  I’ve always wanted to know how to make cakes and now I’m gonna learn!

The first course is four weeks, which is followed by three more courses, so we’ll see how far we go!  This course we learn a lot of basics though and I’ll be sure to share our progress!!  I can’t wait to learn it all!

A New Month

March 1st, 2009

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Is it really already March?  I know I haven’t done a really great job at updating my blog…I could give excuse after excuse, but that would be entirely way too boring, so I will just skip that part.

The children are growing leaps and bounds and they teach me a lot about love, patience and forgiveness.  They are happy most of the time, although Moriah thinks 5 AM is the time to wake these days and Elijah is having a very time with going to bed as of late.  I think its an overactive imagination.  We are all quite tired as you can imagine.

It being a new month and all, I’ve been thinking.  I’ve been think that I really do need to get my act together.  Here it is March and I had every intention of reading through the Bible this year.  Wanna know how much I’ve read?  Genesis.  Just Genesis.  I enjoyed it so much too!  I sat down one night and read Genesis straight through with only bathroom and snack breaks to interupt me.  I wanted to blog about Genesis.  I didn’t.  Now I think I’ve forgotten all the highlights…maybe not though…maybe a quick overview would be good.  Now that is March and all, I should probably just read it over again.  Then I should move on, right?  You know, to Exodus.  The Bible is so interesting!!  I’ve never read it cover to cover.

Oh yes, I pick up my Bible (or look it up on my computer) every day for some reason or another, but that really isn’t enough!  I want to be able to say I’ve read it cover to cover.  I want to refresh my memory of all those Sunday School lessons I heard as a child and all of the things I studied in college.  I want to KNOW God’s word.  I want a deep and wonderful understanding of God’s word.  I want to think through God’s word in such a way that I never have before.  Guess what?  I’m gonna blog it all.  At least I’m gonna try.  Because God’s word is interesting and since I’ve got a blog I don’t journal nearly as much as I used to.  Writing takes too much time.  My computer is entire way too old deletes files randomly, so I put most everything on the internet anyway.  Bloggyland!!  Here I come!  I hope you don’t get too bored!  If you do, sorry!  I know I won’t be bored.  It is God’s word after all.  :)

FEED ME!

May 17th, 2008

You know its funny how kids tell you when they’re hungry.

Moriah is at the wonderful stage of breastfeeding…ONLY breastfeeding. I really love this stage because first of all its convenient. I don’t have to prepare anything and I can usually (sometimes she doesn’t cooperate in public and we go to the car) feed anywhere. She usually wants to eat every 3-4 hours and Mommy just knows those cries. Second of all I don’t have to carry around bibs, baby food, baby spoons, a booster seat etc, etc when we go out. Its coming soon enough, but for now we’ll enjoy the stage we’re in.

Elijah on the other hand needs food. He needs a variety of fruits and vegetables and meats and grains. However…he doesn’t always know how to tell me that he’s hungry. Oh yes and sometimes even when he’s hungry he refuses to eat what he’s already agreed sounds yummy to eat. I say “do you want some yogurt?” He says “yes!” and runs to his chair. I get the yogurt out, get a spoon, put it in front of him, he eats a couple spoon fulls and he promptly hucks it across the dining room table. Then, he cries because he wants to eat it. Why does he do that? Because he’s a sinner, just like his mommy. I suppose this is a stage that he will eventually (can’t come soon enough) grow out of.

I, am becoming more and more aware of how often I forget to eat. Not real food, believe me I don’t forget to stuff my face. I mean I forget to be fed by God through his Word. I forget to take the knowledge He gives me through His word and trust Him. I know that my father, my God, my Lord wants me to be fed. I know I’m hungry and I’m constantly pushing his Word out of the way and then crying because I don’t have answers. Even when I read a bit I don’t always follow through with the trusting part. Its hard to trust God when your son is so ill or when you don’t know where you’ll live in a few weeks. Its hard to trust God when He waits until the last possible minute to shed some light on dark spots in life. So many times, we as Christians are too busy to stop and pray, way too busy to stop and read God’s love letter to us and entirely too busy doing our own thing to stop and do what we know God wants us to do.

God has begun the process of breaking me down by giving way more than I can handle so that I will trust Him. Its not an easy task, but He’s never let me down yet, even when I let him down. I’ve never gone hungry, my children won’t either. I’ve never been homeless and I’m certain that we won’t be when its time to move. Now, I’ve gotta ask this one thing…”God, will you show us something soon? We’re starting to get thirsty, not worried, just a bit thirsty for some good news, maybe?”

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